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Eve... [Feb. 24th, 2006|02:46 am]
1stgirl_phoenix
[mood |sleepysleepy]

Well.... this eve we went to karoke... though it was about an hour ago I felt like I had all of the energy in my body removed. I feel totally drained. I think that I am going to go crawl into bed with my Dragon and drift off to sleep.

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Sub Drop contintues [Feb. 23rd, 2006|04:47 pm]
1stgirl_phoenix
[mood |lethargiclethargic]

I am still feeling down... though i do feel better than I did yesterday. I really wish that I would just feel normal. You know.. stop feeling out of sorts. stop feeling like I am not really here... feeling like I am still in a fuzz. My Dragon is asleep and the kiddos are up plus one additional one. I feel totally alone right now. I know that I am not.. I know that it is just the bi-polar talking... but hay... this is here to vent what i am feeling. I know that my Dragon will read this... I know that he will use this journal to gage just how well i am doing with my drop. I think that I am going to go lay down on the couch and watch a movie with the little one and wait for Angel and Christy to call and say that they have a baby.

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Bi-polar and submission [Feb. 23rd, 2006|09:46 am]
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Something that I have noticed... I am bi-polar and take meds daily to stay level. The problem is that when I have sub drop I think that I am going lower than I usually would because of being bi-polar. I am wondering if there are other subs/slaves out here that are bi-polar and experience the same thing? How do you deal with it. Is there a support group for us? (lol)

I know that I can not discuss this with a shrink because then I would have to explain why I am experiencing the mood swings to begin with. Not something I am comfortable discussing with my current doc. He would give me the leacture about this being an unhealthy relationship... but I feel healthier and more complete then I ever have.

Just hoping that I am not alone in these feelings.

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