||[Mar. 16th, 2006|01:22 pm]
I am feeling a bit off today. I got a call from my mother this morning. The stuff from Oklahoma will be here tomorrow. She wants me and Dragon to come out there and help her go through some of it. We know that the furniture is mostly coming here... but there are boxes of stuff, pix, photoes, kitchen stuff etc. They need me there. My mother has been there so much for me, I just need to be there for her.
There wont be a memorial service up here for my Grandmother. My daddy is not in the state to be able to have to go through another one. I will have to find a way to bring closure to this myself. I need to talk to Dragon... but he is alseep. I cant wake him. He did not sleep lastnight...he needs to get some sleep. I know that when he reads this he will tell me that I should have woke him up anyway. I just cant though. Maybe I need to work some of this out in my head before I share it with anyone. I sort of told Tati.. asked her to do the class for me tomorrow night. I dont think that I will be able to do it. Either we wont be home or I wont be up for it. So... I need to write it up. I am not sure what to do. I know that if I tell the coven that I am to do this, everyone will be understanding of it.
Why is it the cool holidays that are now always going to be fucked up for me??? She died on Valentines day and the stuff is coming in on St. Patys day. Fun huh? At least Tammys St. Paty party is not this weekend, it should be fun. I think that I will need the release. I wish that I had the money to go to the Wet spot on Saturday, I could really use the chance to put Priestess away and just be me for a night.
Anyway... I need to jet.
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